So, I had one of the scariest mornings of my short time as a Mother this past Monday. My sweet Ian had to be rushed to the ER with a gash in the back of his head. Thankfully, Mark was home to take him, so I could stay home with the younger two.
But my mind could not settle, I was sobbing, pacing, trembling. I wanted to be there with him at the hospital. Hold his hand. Comfort him when they put the staples in. I didn't know if he had cracked his skull, if he would need an x-ray, a CT scan. Would he have to stay the night? I prayed as I paced and tended to my babies, and as Mark updated me periodically, I began to calm.
Of course as soon as I laid eyes on him, I knew he was just fine. His father had done a perfect job taking care of him and keeping him calm and occupied. He has always been my brave little bear as he has always taken falls, scrapes and scratches in stride. This was no different. He was back to his normal self by the time he got lunch in him.
The whole experience showed me just how out of control life is. How we never know what the next moment holds, so each moment is important. We cannot savor each moment or live in each moment or even ponder each moment most days, but we can remember that our God holds them all. The good ones and the bad. And most importantly, He holds our babies, because they are His. He loves and cherishes them a thousand times more than we do. We are simply stewards of their little hearts and minds for a short while.
I am so grateful that He chose me to be Ian and Caleb and Emily's Mother. They teach me each day and I wouldn't trade it for anything.